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[(Anonymous)]

To Sparrow

so i dunno if she told u but nightingale mentioned a thing. a crush thing. like u might have 1 on me? honestly i have a lot of feelings in regard to that and theyre kinda complicated but its nothing to do with u specifically and more me. so i might have a lot of feelings on that but its also kinda irrelevant if things dont go nowhere.

which it might not cuz u kno i shoved a shard of me proposing to a dude in ur mirror which was a really big dick move. not because im married, the dude is actually gay so that really cant go anywhere good or workable, but more because i was a major dick. i would understand if that made u realize u probs shouldnt want to date me or anything cause im a travesty.

now thats relevant. i know im rambling but that is my point. im a travesty. u know more than a lot of people of what i went through but just cause u know the events doesnt mean u know the full affects of it. and the thing is i do like u and i do care about u a lot. but i also know if i hide that stuff it cant go anywhere because that stuff is apart of me and itll have to come up at some point. casual dates or make outs are one thing but anything committed needs openness

i should have said this to your face but im kind of a coward like that and words are really fucking hard.

the thing is im scared. im scared to show people the real me. because the real me is broken. maybe irreversibly so. i grew up in a terrible place and to survive i had to put all this fucked up way of thinking in my head so i could deal with it. i know im fucked up and a lot of what is but i dun know how to STOP it. i try going to people for help but when i do i just seem to hurt them and they hurt me and it doesnt go well.

i dont want to hurt you. theres a part of me that wants to reach out but another part wants to pull away because im a goddamn lady of science and i know u cant expect to do the same thing and get a different result.

but i hope itll be different anyway.

just

if u expect to already know who i am and thats all u want its better to let go of any feelings beyond friendship now. if u know theres stuff ur not seeing a lot of stuff

then do what u want

Signed,

Roxy

[(Anonymous)]

To Hydra

u know i always thought u were cute. just did all these cute things and were so earnest and caring. i liked kissing u cuz u were cute n cuz i think u deserve more affection. i know u dont really get why other ppl think that or at least u didnt.

whoever made u realize that its ok to think more highly of urself is a saint. cuz i gotta tell ya the day u said 'the style doesnt suit u' instead of 'something like this will never suit me at all,' u were absolutely radiant. it was just a flash a brief moment but it was there and it was beautiful.

i hope you keep going that way because ur cute now. but you could be that radiant all the time if u just let that light in u shine.

i know it wont be easy. its pretty obvs that u had to deal with a lot of shit. i get it. i get why u worry about food. i get that means where u came from was not a fun place to me. i get how people have to change themselves to deal with those things.

but i saw hope for u. to move beyond that tragedy and be the angel ur meant to be.

keep letting your light shine, hydra, and let the world see how beautiful you are.

Signed,

Roxy

[(Anonymous)]

To Otacon

dear otacon

im sorry for hurting u

i miss u and id like it if we could hang out more again

signed

roxy

[(Anonymous)]

To Technic

i know ur hiding things

im not sure if im grateful or not. it took a while to notice. but i think u do it to protect me and thats sweet in its own way. u keep trying to make me feel better and tried to keep me from hurting myself.

u care a lot

i just hope u arent hurting urself in the process

i know its p hypocritical of me to say. not like im good at being straight forward. fuck i have a chronic problem of approaching everything at some fucked up angle. but i know how that wears on a person. i dont want u to have that wear. so make sure ur finding someone to vent too.

ur a good guy and u deserve to be happy. and part of being happy is not having to go it alone.

signed

roxy

[(Anonymous)]

To Hibiki

im glad ur back. even if u had just been lady tabby i think i would have still come to love u anyway. cuz ur sweet and kind and wonderful and i dont think that would change in alternates. but im still glad its u u because i would have still missed u a whole lot.

even if youre a cat youll always be part of rats

and youll always be my friend

signed

roxy

[(Anonymous)]

To Zelos

i know stupid to do this but delriza does dreams so i can hope maybe youll get this message anyway

i miss you

love always

roxy

[(Anonymous)]

To Swan

u got a lot of issues dude

like a serious amount of issues

but u know what? ur also pretty awesome. youre nice and caring and even if u fuck up sometimes u still want to make everyone happy. i just hope youll include yourself in that one day.

youre important to a lot of people u know. like a ridic amount of people. and they all want to see u happy and healthy and bein a part of their lives.

myself included.

signed

roxy

[(Anonymous)]

To New Unicorn Rat

so im kind of a travesty.

in general.

probs good u kno that right away.

but im not going to see you and only see zelos. it just might take a few days for me to deal with the hurt, but im not going to do that.

i dont like making people 'replacements,' whether they be good or bad ones.

so im not gonna i just need to deal first.

signed

roxy

[(Anonymous)]

To Lupus

i still want to see u. i dont understand how u can be fine not being the real u. i can understand it being hard to be the real u, i can understand not knowing the real u, but not wanting to acknowledge the real u exists at all is...honestly kinda terrifying.

the thing is i dont think the real u can be bad. i mean u got signs of crazy, but lbr, theres a lot of signs of crazy in kyriakos. but u also care about ppl and want to make em happy so earnestly. that sort of thing doesnt come from nothing. no one just automatically decides to be loving and caring without there being something meaningful in that.

so whoever the real u is is someone i think is more than worth knowing and understanding.

so i hope youll let me see her one day

signed

roxy

[(Anonymous)]

To Sapphire

i love u

not like romantically so dont freak out but youre precious to me. i still dont think you understand what you did for me and how much it means to me that you keep trying to help me. i know im difficult. im a travesty and a stubborn asshole and i dont know how to just behave normally.

but u keep trying anyway and that means a lot to a girl who grew up with so little.

i dont care what u r. i care about who u r. and who u are is an amazing girl who wants to understand people and will dance people into better emotions and try your hardest and someone not provoke the goddamn crazy shadow me. no one else managed to avoid it. only you did.

you are amazing.

there is something you need to understand tho. i need to care about someone if theyre truly going to help me i block everyone out too much. so i care about you and your good there.

but i will let the world burn to protect what i care about if i think im going to really lose it otherwise.

i kno its a scary thought but theres only a few things im selfish about and im REALLY selfish about them. if i had a choice between my loved ones and save all the dead universes i would choose my loved ones.

you are one of my loved ones. and yeah i kno all that shit is scary as fuck, but its to make a point. you are cared about. there are people who care about you strongly.

stop selling yourself short.

signed

roxy