Um, hi! I've never written a letter like this before, so I'm sorry in advance if I mess it up. Ah...it's not even a "love" letter, really. So maybe it doesn't count for what the Echo wants? But I don't think I feel that way, exactly, and I didn't want to be dishonest. But I do care about you a lot! And I think you're really cute, and really nice, and you've always tried to help me out even when I couldn't understand just what you were talking about. You're really important to me! But I don't think I've been as kind to you in return, because....I guess I'm a messed up person. And I want to make it up to you — I want to make you happy.
So, um, can we do something together one day? With just us? If you don't want to, that's okay. You can tear up this letter and pretend it never happened. I'll respect your wishes.
To Roxy:
Hi! This is my second time writing this kind of letter, so I'm still not that good at it. Sorry! But I wanted to try, anyway, because I think there's some things I should tell you and it's easier for me to write about it than say it to your face. Ah, I know that's cowardly, but it's probably less troublesome like this. Anyway! I think you're pretty and nice and you're always trying to talk me into thinking more highly of myself. I didn't understand why before, and that must have been frustrating for you. It's still hard for me to understand, actually, but I'm trying to get better at it. And I wanted to say thanks for everything you've done for me....and that, uh, I like you a lot. I know it's not love, I'm not....normal enough for that, but you're still special to me.
Would you like to do something one day, with just us? But if you'd rather not, that's okay too. You can throw this letter away and forget about it. What you want is important to me, so...it's fine.
Dearest Wren, though we may not see eye to eye, I feel as though I have known you for days, nay, countless years past before this one.
This is a love which shall forever grow stronger with time, borne from respect for your grand horns and e'er on into infinity.
Yours now and forever,
Black Swan
To Crane:
My beloved, my princess, my all encompassing moon and my ever-radiant sun, you are my everything.
How shall I begin to speak of your incredible beauty? To describe the indescribable? The sun glistens through your hair radiantly, making a halo around you whenever you should walk by. Your toned arms, your immaculate legs, your curves themselves are splendid, entrapping my gaze, entombing my very soul within their glory and radiance. The way your uniform gently kisses your body fills my every waking thought with naught but the feeling of your skin against my own, even something so simple as the lightest brush of a hand against your lovely cheek.
Watching you, I am certain that you were born to flawlessly live in this world as a perfect existence... and that it is my own lot in life to revolve around your radiance, trapped by the gravity of your beauty, waiting for each gaze that the radiant sun may pass towards this lowly planet.
Let us tarry no longer. I must have you... must make you my own, 'ere I go mad from want. Please, would you accompany me... be mine as I wish to be yours? Even if only for an instant, I must shower you with my love.
I'm so sorry. I'll get better, I promise. Please don't hate me. If I've hurt you and you have to leave me, that's okay. I hope we'll be friends again one day.
Oh, where to begin. How could I ever describe how much you have warmed my heart. I can never feel alone with you around. To know that you are near, and will stay by my side to the best of your ability is a true comfort. I can always feel safe with you around.
But I wonder if you realize how deep my feelings run. Not just as a teammate, but as a woman. How hard it can be to not touch. Your bronze skin, your hair light the moonlight, you warm eyes. To say nothing of your glistening muscles. You do not know how much I struggle to keep things platonic.
Well, no more! I cannot keep quiet any longer. I love you Swan, with all my heart. I understand if you do not return my affections, but it is better to take a chance then none at all.
If you will not have me, all I ask is you let me down gently.
so i dunno if she told u but nightingale mentioned a thing. a crush thing. like u might have 1 on me? honestly i have a lot of feelings in regard to that and theyre kinda complicated but its nothing to do with u specifically and more me. so i might have a lot of feelings on that but its also kinda irrelevant if things dont go nowhere.
which it might not cuz u kno i shoved a shard of me proposing to a dude in ur mirror which was a really big dick move. not because im married, the dude is actually gay so that really cant go anywhere good or workable, but more because i was a major dick. i would understand if that made u realize u probs shouldnt want to date me or anything cause im a travesty.
now thats relevant. i know im rambling but that is my point. im a travesty. u know more than a lot of people of what i went through but just cause u know the events doesnt mean u know the full affects of it. and the thing is i do like u and i do care about u a lot. but i also know if i hide that stuff it cant go anywhere because that stuff is apart of me and itll have to come up at some point. casual dates or make outs are one thing but anything committed needs openness
i should have said this to your face but im kind of a coward like that and words are really fucking hard.
the thing is im scared. im scared to show people the real me. because the real me is broken. maybe irreversibly so. i grew up in a terrible place and to survive i had to put all this fucked up way of thinking in my head so i could deal with it. i know im fucked up and a lot of what is but i dun know how to STOP it. i try going to people for help but when i do i just seem to hurt them and they hurt me and it doesnt go well.
i dont want to hurt you. theres a part of me that wants to reach out but another part wants to pull away because im a goddamn lady of science and i know u cant expect to do the same thing and get a different result.
but i hope itll be different anyway.
just
if u expect to already know who i am and thats all u want its better to let go of any feelings beyond friendship now. if u know theres stuff ur not seeing a lot of stuff
u know i always thought u were cute. just did all these cute things and were so earnest and caring. i liked kissing u cuz u were cute n cuz i think u deserve more affection. i know u dont really get why other ppl think that or at least u didnt.
whoever made u realize that its ok to think more highly of urself is a saint. cuz i gotta tell ya the day u said 'the style doesnt suit u' instead of 'something like this will never suit me at all,' u were absolutely radiant. it was just a flash a brief moment but it was there and it was beautiful.
i hope you keep going that way because ur cute now. but you could be that radiant all the time if u just let that light in u shine.
i know it wont be easy. its pretty obvs that u had to deal with a lot of shit. i get it. i get why u worry about food. i get that means where u came from was not a fun place to me. i get how people have to change themselves to deal with those things.
but i saw hope for u. to move beyond that tragedy and be the angel ur meant to be.
keep letting your light shine, hydra, and let the world see how beautiful you are.
You've been a precious person to me for a long time now. I want to know more about you and your world, and for you to know more about me and mine. When you're upset I want to be there for you, and comfort you. I want to see you smiling and laughing more often, and to give you reasons to do that. No matter what happens, I want to be someone you can rely on.
I love you a lot, Roxy.
(signed DS).
To Hydra:
Even though you might not understand why, you're important to me. You're considerate and hardworking, and it made me happy to see you doing something for yourself! I really want to get to know you better and spend time with you.
(signed I Still Like Kissing You)
To Lupus:
I hope you'll believe me one day when I say I don't ever want to leave you.
Thank you for accepting someone like me as your teammate. This is meant to be a "love" letter, but I don't know if I can truly use that word. All I know is that I care for you all, in a way. I hope to be a person you can come to care for as well.
[Parts of the letter have been scratched out and rewritten several times. After MUCH INTERNAL DEBATE it is signed "Fade".]
During the game I was content to watch you from afar, because I did not wish for you to see me engaging in such activities. Even in the body of another, I do not want you to see me acting so shamelessly.
This means I am self conscious when you are involved and I am yet unsure what this means, particularly now that Hibiki believes that we are a 'thing.' I did correct her, but it was enough to make me momentarily regret having regained my ability to emote.
I digress. The point is... I feel more like a person and les like a monster when you are with me. I like that feeling.
This letter is my thanks. I apologize that I lack the loquence to say it directly.
I will not sign it, but only because you already kow who this is and the idea of anonymity allows additional ability to be frank
Of all the strange people I've met here, you've been my favorite. I feel like everything I do make things worse between us, but you still put up with me. I know you want to go somewhere different when you leave here, and wherever that is, I hope I get to go with you.
I know I've been a handful. I'm sorry for that. Especially to Bella and Mira -- I've gotten to talk to a lot of people here about a lot of things, and I think I'm almost ready to face myself. I don't think I'll ever be 'good' or 'normal', but I'll try as hard as I can for you. You're all mine and I love you.
It really isn't your responsibility to worry about me. But you indulge my nonsense anyway. Even if it's only out of pity...even if only because you felt sorry for me, thank you for letting me pretend, for a little while.
I know Snapdragon's gone, but I'd really like it if you could pass on an apology to her. This goes to Cosmos, too. I'm sorry for how I treated you guys after that one game. I know I should be saying this to you directly, but it's hard. I know I'm a coward, and I'm sorry for that, too.
It's a lot easier to just write something like this and shove it in a tree and forget about it, right? Like it never existed, until you all see it. If you see it. Who knows?
But I'm really sorry. It wasn't your fault. I would've done differently in your situation...but I'm not a good person. And to Hydra, I'm sorry for saying the things I have to you. I don't think you really get it, but...I've been jealous. It's not right, and talking to you during this game made me realize that. I think you're what having a sister is like, so...I'm sorry.
To Yarrow, I'm sorry we tried to make Atlas leave you forever. That was really mean of us.
This is a super fun awesome game, isn't it! I just wanted to write a letter too, even if I'm not really playing! You're all great, and watching you sing was super fun! You all did great, each and every single one of you! I hope we can all sing again together soon!
I really believe it is best you find people to trust. It is not an easy concept, I am aware, but the people here have shown themselves to be kind. I doubt they would ever turn you away.
You also have teammates who care very deeply for you. Some who would rather die than abandon you.
You should not be so afraid. You have nothing to really lose.
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